Mercy and Grace
by Suellen Fry
...On my knees before the Lord, my body hunched over, my spirit calls out to the distant heavens praying
for a miracle...
It has been five months now since the police finally arrested my husband. The terror I lived was over now.
There was finally peace in my home. There were no more unkind words being spoken. There were no more
threats to kill me and no more hands around my neck. My little boy's hurt and anger were finally being
replaced with hugs and kisses. He had stopped crying. He had stopped worrying about his mommy. Most of
all...my heart was mending in ways I never thought imaginable.
I too well remembered the time I lived in fear. I remembered the courage it took to grasp my little
guy’s hand, our bags packed....leaving for the shelter for abused women! But most of all....I remembered
the night I woke up out of my slumber feeling forgiveness in my heart! I had received the gift of healing
through the arms of Christ as he held me tight each night. It was HE WHO wiped my tears. It was HE who
covered me with his wings and protected me and my son. How could I forgive the man who hurt his own
wife? It wasn't me...It was Christ! Through Christ I was able! I was jolted in the middle of the night. I sprang
from my bed in upright position. What was happening to me? The pain was gone! The anger lifted. It was as
if all the hard drive was erased.
Still.........The Lord my God had something else in store for me!
He had yet another lesson for me to learn along the way! Little did I know how powerful his mercy and
grace really are!
However, while my husband was still lurking around my home....he had established quite a reputation!
New owners had taken over my apartment complex and things were changing. In a conversation with the
landlord one day, I was told that he (my husband) was to stay away or else it would cause problems for
me! He was not living the lifestyle that appealed to apartment mangers and landlords. "I will have none
of that around here", she said. "I do not want trouble."
But there was trouble....my husband did not respect the restraining order. He was determined to stalk
me and cause problems!
Now, finally was arrested! However.....that didn't seem to matter to my landlord! She still wanted me out!
She even refused to accept my rent money!
This had been going on for months now. Letters kept coming in the mail telling me I was about to be
evicted. My 7-year-old son would cry asking me, "Are we going to be homeless like those bums on the
street?" "No,” I would tell him. “Don't worry, Mommy is here and I will always make sure we have a roof
over our head."
Five months had passed. And still there was no legal eviction notice on my door! What was happening?
Why was the landlord not evicting me? I never knew from one minute to the next what was going on. So,
I decided...maybe I should look for another place and get out while I can. Everywhere I turned the doors
seemed to close right in my face. Now what was I to do? The truth was, my husband was incarcerated
and every responsibility now fell upon me! What a burden it was to carry.
One day in the midst of all the chaos that crowded my mind, I made a call about an apartment. Little did I
know the man on the other end of the phone would be a messenger directed from God Himself. After
telling this person my story he proceeded to inform me that his boss was my current landlord, one and
the same! "Don't tell anyone I told you this,” he proceeded. “You know that phone number on the sign
on front of your apartment building? That's your landlord's boss's number! Give him a call,” he said.
The next day I called the number. After hearing my story, he told me first to pay what I owed. Then he told
me to open my front door and to look outside at the sun shining and realize that it was a new day. Wow!
The burden had been lifted. I could stay!
But where would I come up with all that money? Most of it was spent. I hadn't managed my money properly,
plus I had other expenses. Maybe I would just have to suffer the consequences for all of this. I had 48
hours to come up with the funds!
Okay...this is where our merciful Lord kicks in!
So where did I begin this story? Oh...I was on my knees praying before the Lord.
Yet my faith was somehow shaken. I began to break down, gasping for air…I was in a full blown panic
attack! But that wouldn't stop the Lord from trying to reach me! As the Holy Spirit intervened and spoke
to the Lord through me I could feel myself being cleansed.
The next day came. I woke up, took Nick to school, came home and got back in bed. I hadn't been
physically well now for weeks. I had lost 10 pounds and felt weak at the knees. It was all I could do just to
get my child off to school.
I managed feverishly to run through the yellow pages. I had to call someone for help. I wanted to call
some churches. In a panic...I was trying to get help! The doors closed in my face.
With only five hours to go, I felt completely helpless.
Then I heard Him speak. "Lie down and rest. I've got it covered! Have faith!"
Thirty minutes later my mom called. "How much do you need? Okay. I will mail it today"
Still....where was my faith? Okay...now let's see you come through, God!
The Lord then told me, "Thou shalt not test the Lord thy God." What did that mean? I did not know at the
time. I fell to my knees and praised Him for having mercy on me and for being there for me once again!
A couple of days later it hit me on the head like a ton of bricks!!!
It was already done! What was I waiting for? Why does God have to prove himself to me? Who was I to
question God himself for proof of the miracle? He had my back the whole time! Despite my seeming doubt,
despite my poor money management, He had His arms wrapped around me the whole time!!!
Oh, that's what He meant when He said, "Do not tempt the Lord your God!"
Why must we always have to see the proof before us? Shouldn't God's Word be enough?
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans
to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:11-13
I had nothing to do with the miracle! Mommy didn't take care of anything! Our Lord, my Sovereign Father
scooped me up from my own mess and proved once again that His mercy and grace are sufficient!
Thank you, Jesus!
The figure of Sophia appears in many religious traditions, including the early Gnostics. In Christianity
and Judaism she frequently is equated with 'The Wisdom of God' referred to in the book of Psalms as
well as in the New Testament. In Judaism she also is linked to the feminine aspect of God in the
Recently Linda Colucci-Madalone became intrigued with the concept of Sophia, and here shares with us
the results of her research concerning Sophia's spiritual attributes.
SOPHIA: an essay
By Linda Colucci-Madalone
For decades Sophia has been a mystery to many Spiritualist and Religious groups. To this day Sophia continues
to be an evolving mystery, a great secret, but She is attracting greater interest and more people are talking about
Who and What Sophia is.
Earlier this year I was guided to find out who Sophia was. Much to my surprise I found books on Her with a wide
range of theories. I was moved, inspired and gained Faith by Her beautiful energy and Her loving messages.
I have a belly button as you do, and in Humility and Peace I Am simply sharing my thoughts about Sophia.
Sophia is wisdom. She holds within her every aspect of Human, Cosmic and Divine evolution.
Sophia helps Us understand and recognize the “I Am.”
Sophia is Power with Humility. Sophia is Goddess energy in balance with God.
Sophia is Strength with Compassion.
Sophia is with You Always in All Ways.
Sophia unites Body, Mind, Spirit and Emotion. Sophia is Love And Love is Sophia.
Some books say that Sophia is the Mother of God, Mother of Humanity, and the Soul of the World,
the Holy Spirit, and the Goddess Nature.
Sophia is the Past, Present and the Future. Sophia is Divine Feminine. Sophia is Nature,
Sophia harmonizes and connects us with many things that we usually keep separate.
Some say that Sophia is connected with Isis-and the two Mary’s and connected with Jesus.
Then why…don’t we hear more about Sophia?
I believe that Sophia is a Mystery that each of Us in due time will discover, if We have been asking God to be an
instrument of His Peace, and if we are walking our talk through Love and Light.
Where You feel God She is --Where You see Nature She lives.
In truth, I feel that Sophia’s goal is to help Us help Ourselves by helping Others. Pray, Meditate and Speak of Her
often and Your life will find new pathways to experiencing Heaven on Earth.
Thanks to: Rudolph Steiner and Christopher Bamford for their writings on Sophia.